Hello my a-listers. When I initially started this blog I intended for it to be a mix of both tips and tricks, as well as some documentation of what I'm doing out here in LA to try and further my career. Well, I haven't done any personal posts, so I figured that now is better than later. I'm going to apologize in advance since this post will be a bit of a rant and won't offer much insight to Los Angeles or the entertainment industry.
To put it bluntly, I haven't been booking work at the rate I would have liked. I've been feeling stuck and in desperate need of a divine intervention to make things work out, but that won't happen. I can, however, fix it myself. My plan out here hasn't been working and I am desperate to switch it up, which is why I have decided to announce that I'll be auditioning for a new agency. If you've been reading my previous posts you'll know that I am signed to an agency, but it's just a mother agency that allows me to sign to other agencies for more representation. Now, onto this agency that I'm aspiring to sign with.
I'm not talking about another quiet mother agency, but one of the most powerful agencies in he world. This place has connections like no other and can literally make you a global star overnight. I'm not in this business for the fame, but I of course want to be successful, and being a global sensation is a sign of success. I know what you're thinking, "J, if you're not booking much work now, why would a powerful company want you?" That's right, they may not, but I'm trying to be positive here. You see, you have nothing, literally nothing, to lose by auditioning for anything. The worst that can happen is that they'll choose someone else. It's not a big deal, so I may as well try my luck and see what happens. If they don't want me, fine, I'll accept my lost and move forward knowing that I at least tried. I'd rather embarrass myself trying than looking back twenty years from now and wondering what could have happened.
I've actually had my eye on this agency for some time. As a young teenager, it was my biggest dream in life to work with this place, but everyone around me told me I was crazy for even daydreaming about them. There was always the talk of you don't have the right look, you don't have the talent, you don't have the connections, you don't have anything. Being the impressionable teen I was, I listened to these people, and I can honestly say it was one of the largest regrets in my entire life. Things could have been a lot different if I didn't listen. I know auditioning as a young teen doesn't mean I would have been accepted, but it would have been nice to save myself years of "what if's" if I had guts to tell others to butt out of my dreams. You might be wondering why I've abruptly decided to go back to my teenage dreams. Well, there is a very good reason as to why I had an overnight switch.
This isn't related entertainment, but to put it bluntly, someone I knew committed suicide. It was devastating to me and something I haven't been able to get a grip with or get over. I don't think I'll ever get over it, but it made me realize how ridiculously short life is. I've spent night after night wondering how his life could have been and wishing I could go back and time and change things. All the dreams he had and now won't be able to see come true. the family he has left behind, and the future they once had together. Even the little things, like all the beautiful music he'll never hear, or rainy nights he won't be able to spend dancing in the rain. After spending so much time wondering about his life, I knew I needed to focus on my own and move on. I can't go back in time, but I can change the future, and I want my future to be exactly how I've always dreamed of.
I could spend hours rambling on about his death, but that's unrelated to this blog so I'll move on to my next point. On March 18th I'll be off to audition for this agency. I have a good feeling about it, and I'm going to keep my head up about the future the whole time. I want to be optimistic and enjoy the process of the audition. I'm more excited than nervous, and for the first time in awhile, I am looking forward to the future instead of wanting to go back to my youth.
Lately there has been a trend of "putting it out there." I don't know how familiar any of you are with this, but it's meant to be that you say what you're gonna do and the outcome you want, and supposedly it's supposed to keep you all positive. I'm not going to go in depth with trying to explain it, but hey, I've got nothing left to lose by following it for some time.
So, I'm going to put it out there that on March 18th I'll be auditioning for a world renowned AND I will be accepted.
That's all for now my a-listers. If you have any questions or topics that you'd like me to cover, let me know. In the meantime, find me on instagram at instagram.com/lifeonthatalist to always find the latest news on my life on that a-list.
Till next time, xoxo
-J
Hello my a-listers! Find me on instagram at instagram.com/lifeonthatalist
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